Sorry

I have known I’ve been bisexual since the beginning of middle school. I came out to my close family members such as my sister and cousins as soon as I accepted my sexuality. However, I didn’t tell my parents due to them being homophobic. Fortunately, early this year, I overcame my fear and finally let my mom know my true self. It occurred at home with my mom and sister present. My sister, mom, and I were eating dinner while my mother asked my sister if she had a boyfriend. My sister replied with no and then my mom asked if she was interested in girls which she also replied no to as well. My mother then turned to me and asked if I liked boys or girls; ready to be hit with disappoint, I hesitated and stated yes. Her face quickly turn to shock and turns to disappointment. She looks me right in the eyes and said that I was crazy. I immediately wanted to take it back; I wanted to say that I didn’t mean it, it was a joke. I wanted to lie to my mother about who I truly am. My mom didn’t stop there; she continue to say words that burned my heart and will continue to. “You don’t know you are! You’re crazy, don’t say things like that,” is what she said. Little did she know that I wanted to scream and cry like I’ve never done before. Unfortunately, I kept it in and I have to carry that burden with me forever. We soon moved on after the heated moment and continued on with our dinner. Since that day, she hasn’t mentioned anything about me being bi. It’s almost like she doesn’t want to believe that it’s true; like if she says something, it would all be too real. I wish I spoke up at that moment to defend myself. I wish now that I can make her believe that me being bi isn’t the end of the world. But, I’m thankful that I have moved on and learn how to continue my life without being ashamed of who I am. I just hope others out there, just like me, know that if someone doesn’t accept you for who you truly are, that shouldn’t stop you from being yourself. You shouldn’t hid away but instead speak up for yourself and let people know that no matter what, you are not going to change.