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The beauty of home

Where I’m from, you can sense the smell of gasoline in the air, all the people who are using motorcycles and the main traveling method, where you can see street vendors scattered all around at any street corners.

Where I’m from, you can see kids playing traditional games such as nhảy lò cò, tạt lon, cờ tướng outside the neighborhoods, where you can see street cats and dogs running around.

Where I’m from you can see students leaving their school and getting picked up by their family members, parents, grandparents, uncles, whoever!

You can also see students hanging out with their friends going to a convenience store or a boba stand to get some snacks afterschool.

Where I’m from, you can feel the energy surging through you in the morning, with the fresh smell of coffee to start your day, where a classic bowl of pho or a loaf of banh mi will be your best breakfast companions.

I love my country as a whole but this is only my experience. I can’t fully understand how diverse my country is, how some people have different experiences of their own, how people start the day.

Living in the present

In these recent days, the sun is blocked, the days gloomy, rain regularly pours down,
But there’s a certain grace and charm in the depressing days, the relaxing vibes with a slow jazz song where you just vibe.

You can hear the soft howling wind blowing through your body as the warmth of the air calms it down right after.

The silent screech of the roads and the hallways while I’m taking a stroll, fills me with loneliness yet encouraging freedom, free from noise, free from human contact. Only me having my own empty thoughts to myself.

Thinking about my future would always be stressful, never easy, never would be for anyone, the future would always be a journey, a path with ways and roads that will eventually lead you to the end if you keep your self value.

During the moment, I didn’t think of anything as a future, I didn’t think about what I should do tomorrow or who I should be, I thought of how calming the moment is for me, why it looks so beautiful.

Living in the present helps you enjoy more of who you are now, it calms your mind and helps you love yourself as a whole. Creating a sense of freedom from the shackles called overthinking, stressing, anxiety, most importantly self doubt, such as comparing yourself to the people who is ahead of you, be jealous of them not knowing, they could also be you, having their own big problems, but just a bit richer, or having a good physique, a bit more famous or people just like them more, it doesn’t matter.

You’re you and they’re them, you have your own thing you need to work on , sometimes you feel like giving up, but you also need to put yourself in their shoes and you might realize, the reason why they got all of that because they worked really hard for it, so you need to also work as hard as them or even surpassing them, it falls onto you.

Doesn’t matter what will happen to me now, that I will be in the future but I know for one thing, I’m going through this for some reason later on in life I would be glad I went through this, forming into a person who will create an amazing life not only for myself, but also the people i love and kept dear to myself.

Dear Future Phu,

From years on and on, I hope you found your purpose and what you truly need to do.
I hope you have found your true identity and are currently enjoying a cup of coffee in your cafe shop early in the morning, which I hope is named Leblanc.

I hope you have improved yourself to a better person than you are now, full of kindness, caring, always helping the people who are in need around you.

I wonder if you still kept your promise to your friends, focused on improving yourself mentally and physically, until the point where you feel proud of yourself because of who you are, who you are supposed to be and who you will be in the future.

I hope you are working in a lab from 9-5 restless but full of energy and enthusiasm,
I hope you feel confident and proud of yourself for developing a technology that helps people, and changes their life for the better.

I hope you always feel fulfilled and feel a sense of accomplishment knowing that you did your best and hardest on everything.

I hope you always feel you belong wherever you go and whenever you feel lost.

So by the time you read this I hope there’ll be some moments in life that you treasure.
I want to let you know that now you are not alone, keep yourself motivated, work hard, know that you are surrounded by people who you love and dear, who you always want to keep close in your heart and never let go.

From yours truly
Past Phu