Sorry

The story of struggling to be a teen mom at the age of 14 while also losing my big brother  and being pregnant and struggling to get applied for work. It was a very sad and very depressing moment when I heard “sorry for your loss” by the cop who gave us the news. It was a Friday night on October 27, 2023 when my mom and my brother went out to the bar, and my brother has just broken up with his toxic ex girlfriend and since she was in the bar my brother saw her and tried to get close to her and talk, but she got up and grabbed her cousin that was 15(crazy how they let her in the “BAR”) and ran out the bar crossing the street where a funeral and a dealer of cars was at and my brother was right behind her trying to catch up and my brother catched up and grabbed her and i got told that she was screaming like crazy and that a black man came out of a friends house and threatened my brother and also my brother was a type of guy that would always stand his ground he would defend his mexican flag, family, friends and his race, so the black men told my brother “imma kill you” so when my brother heard that (obviously my brother didnt see no gun) my brother was going toward the black man to fight like how real MEN fight so i guess the black men felt threatened and shot my brother through his heart. And sadly he died instantly, but the thing that we didn’t want to know is that he suffered but we got told that he died instantly and that there was no suffering. And it has been very crazy because i knew her before my brother came to the usa and i never really thought it would get this far but i mean only GOD knows what to do. Even though I have all this going on at the end of the day, I know GOD will give me peace. The peace where he is telling me to never give up and always try with life because now I am a mother to a mini version of me. And even if I am at my lowest, I will get up again and again and again until I get over it because when you want to get over something you will do whatever it is till you do get over it.

The challenge I am facing right now is struggling to get applied to work since I want to work in the afternoon and at least get paid 15 to 18 an hour. The choice I made is to be my own motivation, and to have the mindset of doing stuff that I’m struggling with by myself. And soon the struggle will be gone and I will be very successful.

The outcome is that even if I don’t get applied anywhere, I am the one who is gonna make a change because no one will make a change for me so I’ma just do something i’m interested in which currently i am practicing to do nails and i will  keep going with my practice of doing nails and start my own little business. This story is going to people who are struggling with finding work and being a teen mom at the same time. It is difficult but everything is in GOD’S hands, and soon all my problems will be gone.

The only thing you can do to change that, is change it YOURSELF. If you can’t, then seek help from a family member or someone you trust. Resilience strengthens our ability to adapt and maintain a positive mindset even if faced with difficulty. This story should make people who have the same problem as mine to just keep going and try inventing or do something you are good at just like me when for some reason I don’t get applied for work so I started practicing doing nails which currently I am getting way better and soon I will start to take in clients and make my own money without anyone telling me to hurry up or do this and this when the nail tech who soon I will be can do everything at no hurry. But the advice I give to young mothers who are struggling to find work is to just wait till your time comes because everything is in GOD’S hands.

Every problem will be solved, just trust yourself, don’t depend on no one, and you know you can do it yourself no matter what. My personal and professionally long-term goal is to always be the best mother to my son. If I have a friend or someone who I see that is struggling, I will likely go up to them and ask if everything is okay or if they need anything, or if I can do something to help them. I will ask anything just to help them out. I know everything these days is hard but everything will be fine and perfect just pray. AMEN -Gricelda